Letter 3: My future Children

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To my future children
All of my life I have looked up to the mom’s in my life. My mom came from a family with 9 sisters’ all who have touched my life in one way or another. They have taught me things about being a mother, about being patient, and loving with all of their hearts. From the first time that I picked up a doll to give it a bottle I knew I wanted to be a mother. It’s an instinctual part of me as and for all women whether they know it or not. I have always cherished the opportunity to be a mom, and have looked forward to the day that I will become a mom. I cannot wait for the day that the responsibility of motherhood will come to be. I have dreamed of my children, and look forward to the days that a precious spirit of god is place in my arms. I’m not afraid because I have had good teachers in my life. My mom has taught me how to be a mom. She has always been there for me, and I pray that one day I will have the opportunity to show my mom what she has taught me by being a mom of my own. My grandmother was also an amazing example of what a mother is. With as great as teachers as them I know that I will succeed. I hope that you are patient with me…..I will need it. I know that I will make mistakes….I know at times I will seem overbearing or protective. But one thing I want you to know is that I will love you for always and forever. I pray that I will teach you the things that you need to know.


With all my heart,

Crystal Angel

Letter #1: A stranger

(If Your confused about this letter, Read my previous post)

I’m an observant person. I’m probably the one looking at you and your wondering why is she looking at me. The reason: I’m a curious person that’s why. I’m wondering where you have come from, what you do for a living, what your family is like, or what exciting things are you going to do today. I’m just that type of person. I’m the type of person who will probably smile and wave, and try to start small talk with you in the grocery line.
I truly believe that there is something to learn from each person I meet. Who knows you may have already changed my life, and I never had the opportunity to thank you. So, I would like to do that now, THANK YOU. When I was a little girl my parent’s car broke down in the middle of nowhere. There was this family who stopped drove 30 miles out of their way to the nearest gas station and brought us back food and pop while we waited two hours for the tow truck to come and haul us to the nearest town. You as a stranger didn’t have to do that for us, but you did. There are so many things that I can learn from you.
It’s not always easy to love someone you just met, but I’ve had the opportunity in my life to meet a stranger like yourself and love them. Loving and serving others has made all the difference in my life. So, if you see me staring at you or smiling at you come on over and say hi. I’ll be waiting and excited to see how my life changes because you left your footprint on my heart.

Letters

My friend Sharlee gave me this Idea that she got from a blog. I thought what the heck this may be fun. The challenge is to write a letter to someone per day. Like Sharlee I will probably do this once a week or less. Here are the different people or “Things” I will be writing to:
1. A stranger
2. Your spouse, or your future spouse - even if you've never met them
3. Your child(ren) or future child
4. Your first love or crush
5. One to each of your parents
6. Someone in your life who has caused a lot of pain during your childhood
7. Your sibling(s)
8. Someone you've hurt
9. Someone you don't understand
10. Someone deceased
11. The person you'd want to take care of your children if you & your spouse are no longer alive
12. Your best girlfriend
13. Your dreams
14. Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like
15. Your 13-year-old self
16. The person you miss the most
17. Someone you know who's going through the worst of times
18. Someone that caused someone you love (not you) a lot of pain when they were a child
19. Someone that changed your life
20. Your reflection in the mirror

A few Thoughts

You know I've been thinking a lot about life lately. Maybe it's cause I'm getting older, and looking back I thought that I would be in such a different place than I am right now. I've notice though that people often attempt to live their lives waiting for better things to arrive or waiting for what they expect their lives to be like. Many people become so consumed in accomplishing what they feel that need that they fail to notice the TRUE beauties in life. I feel myself doing that at times. Going through the motions of life without feeling or noticing the beauty around me. I say notice it...before it passes you by. Notice the blueness of the clear skies, the laughter of a child, the smell of the rain, or the feel of the wind. We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting things we don't have, but rather recognizing and appreciating what we do have. I came upon this list in my Journal the other day that I want to share. It's titled the 11 Hints for Life.

1) It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2) A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3) The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4) It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

5) It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone. But it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6) Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it only takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

7) Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8) Find a person who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on them. Who will lay under the stars and listen to your heart beat, or will stay away just to watch you sleep. Wait for the person who will kiss your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends, and who thinks your just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says, "That's her."

9) A careless word may kindle strife. A Cruel word may wreck a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may heal and bless.

10) The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

11) Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.


I want you to know that every day of our lives is a blessing. The good days as well as the bad. Don't wish off your bad days for better ones. Enjoy every day and the blessings that come your way. It is then each of us will find true happiness in our lives.

Change

It's interesting to me that no matter how much I say that I hate change it seems to happen all the time. If it isn't life that is changing...then it's me making changes to my situation. I guess I can say that change happens whether we like it or not. As for me what has changed in my life? I started a new job. I'm working at Boise Behavioral Hospital as the social service director. I promised myself after leaving my last supervisory position that I didn't want to take another one...and you guessed it I did. I think that this one will be better. I only supervise one person, and she is an amazing worker. I have a great team where I work now. I'm so excited for the experience. I work in a geratric unit with indiviudals who have mental health issues. I feel that this will be a great experience for me. I love the job, the enviornment, and what doors it will open in the future. It will take some time getting use to, but it's a fast paced enviornment and I always have things today. It makes work go fast. As for family life things are going good. We just had a family reunion and its good to see everyone. My necies and nephews are growing too fast....but they are so amazing. Life is really good right now...and I'm excited for the future. Peace out for now :D

Summer fun!!!!!!

This weekend we got family pictures. It was so fun. It's so amazing to see our family grow and for the personalities that come with our growing family. This year we had our annual "Aunt Crystal" party. Instead of doing popcorn and movies we had a camp out. I arrived on Friday and took the kids swimming all seven of them...obviously Kendrick is too small to come...but I'm sure he will join the fun someday. We went to the water park... Let's just say that having 3 three year olds, a five year old, a 8, 9, and 10 year old is a chore. It went pretty smoothly though. After the water park I took all of them to the store. Another challenge...but so fun. We built a camp fire in grandma's and grandpa's back yard, and then slept out under the stars. I love my nieces and nephews...they make me laugh. It's fun to spend time with them and watch them grow. I think that their parents have done an exceptional job of raising their beautiful children...I'm so glad to be a part of their lives....I truly am blessed.

Back To Normal

So, I graduated for the third time in my life time, and I can't tell you how wonderful it finally feels to be done. This journey has tested my limits, and has been amazingly tough. Through it all I have learned so much, and amazed at the potiental that god has blessed me with. I'm so excited to see where my future will lead. As for work I will begin therapy work at the agency that I am currently working. That should start shortly. I took my licensure test and passed!! Yea!!! I just have to wait for grades to post and submit my offical transcript to the social work board...and then I will be an offical LMSW. Then....I will be counselign people. Oh! Goodness. It shoudl defintely be a challenge. I'm kinda scared... not sure if I will be good at it or not. I guess only time will tell. I go on my first vacation in over a year, and will be leaving to Vegas on Thursday. I will post pictures when I get back. I guess that's it for now. Hope all is going well for everyone. Love ya